So the reason for my week-long hiatus from blogging is that I got engaged on last Saturday. Yeah! I got engaged. 🙂 It did not happen overnight, but I didn’t want to announce the news publicly because I messed it up last time. I did not even tell my friends until I was sure about it. And this time, am so sure about what I got.
But it is not a fairy tale love. Though she stays just 2 KMs away from my place, in Thrissur, it is an arranged marriage and we learn many things about each other as we talk every day. It is an interesting process. We have so many opposites on many fronts. And there are so many doubts in both of us about each other. When I crack a joke, am conscious to see if she takes it in the right spirit. When she talks, she seems to be wanting to give me the right impression too. But as we get to speak more, it’s becoming like, “okay, you don’t need to explain it“, and I see it as a positive sign.
I never have believed in an ‘ideal match’. I still don’t believe in it. I think it depends on the couple to understand each other and make compromises and that is what makes an ideal match. Compromises – individually, intellectually, materially and so on… We both are trying to do that. And in that process, we expect hard waters and hope to cruise through them together and understand each other better. So each day we have something new to learn.
Her name is Sony (shortened form of Soniya), and according to a friend “a singer and music fan couldn’t have found a match with a better name” and another friend said, “this is called Poetic Justice! You love music and you get a woman named SONY.” 🙂 She loves music, yes, and she also likes to sing though she has not sung for me yet. She has promised she will, soon.
Am I excited? Yes, but also tensed a lot. In fact, I could not even sleep through the night before the engagement day as there were so many things haunting me personally. Not related to marriage, but on the personal/family front. I hope that all will be over soon. And I am teaching myself not to worry about things that I have no control over. I hope I can sail through the troubled waters and make things work for us. And make more music (I know it has been a long time since I posted a song here, but I promise more songs will flow after the marriage).
As for now, we need your prayers and blessings…